sbluesnow (sbluesnow) wrote in sblue_snow,

[FIC] You said Goodbye. I said Wait for Me.

Title: You said Goodbye. I said Wait for Me.
Author: sbluesnow
Group(s): Super Junior
Main: Archive
Pairing(s): Henry x Ryeowook
Chapter(s): One-Shot
Summary: It's you. The you I love. The you I have to leave behind. It's me. It's me who you love. It's me who you are leaving behind. It's me who’s asking you to wait for me in the end. It's you who says yes.


My head is hurting.
My heart is hurting.
When will it stop?
When will the alarm stop blaring in my ears?

It hurts.
I’m alone. All alone.

I’ve given up on love a long time ago.
I’ve lost my heart in the past.
There is no love now.
No beating heart.
No love coming from my heart.

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry.
I really am.
I can't love you back.

I’m sorry. I can't be with you.
Ryeowook, I’m sorry I can't return your love.
I can't come back to you.

I know by telling you this, this way I’m taking the coward's way out.
But it's the only way I know how.

We end here and now.
You and me, us is no longer HenWook.
Only Kim Ryeowook and Henry Lau.

I can't love you but there is someone out there who loves you.
Yunho. He supported us even though he loves you.
You and him deserve to be happy too.

I’m sorry Wookie.

This is goodbye.
Our paths will never cross.
I say never because when you read this letter I’m gone.
To end the pain, means to end me.
I’m long gone by now.

And don't feel guilty because of my death. It’s not you who drove me to do this.
You’re actually the one who made me stop.
But it was only temporary before the pain came back.
I’m sorry Ryeowook.

I’m sorry.

Letting the flimsy piece of paper drop to the ground, Ryeowook fell to his knees.

In the last couple of lines, there were wet spots in the letter. The words written from neat and elegant in the beginning gradually became messier and lousy.

If the letter had stayed elegant and neat then Ryeowook wouldn’t be crying as hard. Crying as much.

Because he knew that Henry left not because he wanted to. But because he had to.
He left him because he wanted to be free of the pain.

"You’re free of it now Henry but what about me? What about the pain that you left for me to feel? You’ve taken my heart and now I don't have it anymore. I can't do what you say and love Yunho. I can't live without my heart."

Raising his head, Ryeowook looked ahead and not at the bright sunny crystal clear blue sky.

"I want to be with you. I don’t care if I get hurt too. I want to be with you Henry. Why did you have to do this? What am I supposed to do now? Go after you? Do what you did? It’ll be quick and painless but that won't compare to what you've been feeling for so long. The agony, the hurt, the pain, the heartache, the life that was taken away from you. It’s not fair Henry! Why did you leave without me?" Ryeowook sobbed, punching the cold concrete roof.

"I’m not going to do what you did. I’m going to live a life without my heart and take on your pain. It’s the only thing you left for me and I’ll cherish it always. No matter the tears, the lonely nights or the insanity that will come when I see you everywhere. This is what you left for me and I’ll cherish it always. Even if I one day take the same road as you. At least then I’ve felt the same pain as you. Experienced the same heartache as you. And most of all, we can be together in the end. Wait for me Henry. Hold onto my heart. I’ll see you when I die."

The clear blue sky turned gray and rain poured down onto earth.

Ryeowook smiled up at the skies.

The letter flew away, up towards the clouds.

Henry was waiting for him. He just knew it.


A/N: I have nothing to say on why I wrote this. -_-

Comments are welcomed~♥
Tags: !fanfiction, group: super junior, pairing: henry x ryeowook
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