sbluesnow (sbluesnow) wrote in sblue_snow,

[FIC] To Love Again Chapter 1

Title: To Love Again
Chapter Title: Bitter Memories
Author: sbluesnow
Group(s): Super Junior
Main: Archive
Pairing(s): Kibum x Eunhyuk, Eunhyuk x Sungmin, Shindong x Eunhyuk, Yesung x Eunhyuk, Leeteuk x Eunhyuk
Chapter(s): 1/6
Summary: When it's not love, its hate but the feeling of love lingers. What is it then? To not love again when you're still in love, how do you forget?


"Hey everyone! Did you watch this yet??" Heechul shouted in a very loud voice in the Super Junior dorm.

"Watch what?" asked Eunhyuk, walking over to Heechul by the computer.

"Are you kidding??" asked Heechul looking at him as if he’s been living under a rock all this time.

"What is it now?" asked Leeteuk coming up from behind Eunhyuk with Kangin, Yesung, Shindong, Sungmin and Kibum trailing after him.

"Donghae singing and dancing a solo to a fan girl. She’s just stunned and sitting there. No reaction."

"None?" asked Sungmin.

"Yeh! Just watch."

The members gather to sit around the computer, and watch the performance.

"Wow." Yesung said.

"Yeah." Shindong said.

"Donghae..." Kibum said.

"His hips..." said Sungmin.

"His voice..." Leeteuk said.

"His outfit..." Kangin said.

"….." Eunhyuk just didn’t say anything. He sat there staring at the monitor.

"That was hot." Heechul said nonchalantly.

"May sound gay but yeah." said Kangin agreeing.

After watching that video, I didn’t know how I felt. Anger? Pain? Jealousy? Maybe but those aren’t the correct words to use. I’m not mad that she was the lucky fangirls to sit there and have Hae sing her a song and do a dance. I’m not mad at all. I’m not in pain either. It’s just I’m confused? Randomly watching this I’m happy for him. But it suddenly brings up bitter memories of the past that I rather not remember. Something not worth holding onto for all this time. For so long, I’ve suppressed the memories but now they rise to the surface. I wonder how long I’ll be able to hold it in before someone walks by and notice. I shouldn’t hold onto the past but it’s so much easier than to live in the moment. Living in the moment is a lot harder. But it gives a person less things to think about just to think about tomorrow and today. Instead of the lies, the tears, the hate, the love. Most of all the love. Did I do something to deserve this? The rejection from you. The person I love? The rejection from a love one? Maybe this is why I’m feeling weird after watching the video. Because I know that that girl is only going to be able to hold onto the meeting with her Donghae for now and then it’ll be gone. Donghae’s not at fault. But him doing that reminds me of you. And I’d rather not. Not after everything. Not the bitter memories.

A/N: The video I’m talking about is this one here [link]. It’s the Hong Kong Fan Meet. From 猪你快乐. It’s a [Fancam] Donghae - Nice and Slow (with Lucky Fan).

Comments are welcomed~♥
Tags: !fanfiction, character: eunhyuk, group: super junior, pairing: eunhyuk x sungmin, pairing: kibum x eunhyuk, pairing: leeteuk x eunhyuk, pairing: shindong x eunhyuk, pairing: yesung x eunhyuk
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