sbluesnow (sbluesnow) wrote in sblue_snow,

[FIC] A Mask That's Getting Hard to Put on Each Time

Title: A Mask That's Getting Hard to Put on Each Time
Author: sbluesnow
Group(s): DBSK
Main: Archive
Pairing(s): Jaejoong x Junsu
Chapter(s): One-Shot
Summary: After so long, the love is there but the people who are loved and once loved aren't.
Dedicated to: renichifreak  from my meme fic here. There's 2 spots left.


It's 5 in the morning. You get up, freshen up, grab a quick bite to eat and you're out the door, going on your morning jog. You jog and jog and jog some more until it's already 7 AM. You make your way down the block that you live on. You're nearing your flat and then you see him.

Him who has you seen at this time every Saturday morning going back to his house yet you've never talked to each other.

You both live on the same street. Your houses are directly opposite of each other on the street.

You slow down your jog to a walk, to just watch him a little longer.

He's smiling and laughing and helping his neighbour load things into her car.

His sound of his pure laughter brings a smile to your face.

He looks up and your eyes connect. The connection lasts for less than 3 seconds before he looks away from you and walks into his home.

You look away and do the same.

You open the gate, walk past the well kept and clean cut lawn of grass and enter your home.

You close the door behind you. You hand turn the lock in place. You turn around and let your back hit against the door.

You think back to the look you had just shared with him.

Your heart's pounding against your chest.

A soft sigh escapes your lips.

"I wonder what would've happened if I had said yes to you on that faithful night."

- Flashback -

It was a big party in a beautiful mansion just outside the city. The party was rocking at full throttle. Everyone was having fun, laughing, eating, talking, dancing, star-gazing, drinking or just doing something fun.

Jaejoong wasn't the exception. He loved the place and what it had to offer but he wanted just a bit of peace to enjoy the night.

Standing outside near the water fountain by the gardens, you look up at the stars. They were so much brighter out here than in the city.


You hear someone call your name and you turn around.

"Junsu. Hey." You smile at him.

He smiles back and looks up at the stars.

"They're pretty aren't they?"

"They are."

"But you're beautiful Jae. I love you. Will you be mine?"

You look away from the stars and look at Junsu seriously. He's looking at you, eyes full of love but also nervous to your reply.

"I'm sorry Su. I don't love you more than a friend." You whisper.

You can see his heart breaking, his eyes watering.

He nods at you and you just want to reach out and hug him.

But before you can, someone else comes and drapes their arm over his shoulders.

"Oh I'm sorry. I wasn't interrupting anything was I?" The man asked slightly tense.

"No it's fine. We were just talking that's all." Junsu said.

The man relaxed and smiled.

"Well come on Suie~ Let's get drunk and party!"

The man led Junsu away and they were laughing and joking and smiling.

You stood there, looking at his retreating back.

- End Flashback -

"I guess in a way I deserve this. I didn't love you then when you loved me. After so long, I know love you now but you don't even see me anymore."

Pushing yourself away from the door, you climb up the stairs and head for your room.

You don't care if you're sweaty from the jog or that you're stomach's grumbling from the little food you ate earlier. You don't care.

You just want to crawl into your bed and hide under the covers and not come up until you're ready to put the mask on again.

The mask that hides the pain and the unrequited love.

The mask the shows the happy-go-lucky Jaejoong.

The mask that covers up the regret and cracked heart.


A/N: Hope it was okay. First time writing a JaeSu fic.

Comments are welcomed~♥
Tags: !fanfiction, group: dbsk, pairing: jaejoong x junsu
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