sbluesnow (sbluesnow) wrote in sblue_snow,

[FIC] I want to Cry

Title: I want to Cry
Author: sbluesnow
Group(s): Super Junior
Main: Archive
Pairing(s): Kibum
Chapter(s): One-Shot
Summary: It's the same every week. No change. Maybe that's a good thing.
Dedicated to: music_loner  because I felt like it.


He didn't why he was here. He didn't need to be here. He had more important things to do then to be here.

"How are you?" The man in the opposite chair across from you asks.

You stare at him.

He stares at you.

"How are you?" You ask back.

"I'm okay. You?"

You tilt your head to the side and ponder on your answer.

Getting over the thoughts of lying you tell him your answer honestly.

"I'm okay?"

"You question that you’re okay?" He asks you back.

"I don't know. I really don't know." You say sinking deeper into the chaise.

"Well how do you feel Kibum-sshi?"

"I feel happy, sad, depressed, stressed, bored, hungry, tired and in pain."

"What kind of pain?" The man asks, hand furiously writing everything you says down.

"I don't know. I just want to cry. I mean I have but it doesn't feel like I've cried enough."

"Why are do you want to cry?"

"I don't know. I just want to."

"Are you trying to get something out?"

"Yeah. I think I am."

"Do you know what you’re trying to let out or why?"

"No. I don't. If I did, I wouldn't be here right?" You turn your head to look at him instead of the ceiling. You don't even remember when you started to stare at the ceiling. You look at him and smile at him.

He looks at you and gives you a sad smile.

"Same time next week?" You ask.

"Of course." He says.

You smile and sit up straight. Letting your feet touch the ground, you grab your jacket that's draped over the chaise and walk out of his office. Walking past the secretary, to the elevator, go down to the lobby, out the big double doors, thank the world for valet parking and get in your car.

You have no idea where you're driving. You just know that same time next week, you'll feel like this again.

A ton of different emotions mixed together and during your sessions, you have no idea why you feel that way. But after the sessions, you're okay again.

Its funny how you pay the guy $1,000 per session and each time there is no new development in your behaviour.

It's always the same questions and different answers given but nowhere near finding out why you act this way.

Maybe it's the room or his ceiling that makes you just forget and happy again. Maybe.

You'll never know.


A/N: Honestly don't know what's up with Kibum. He's just like that in this.

And Jenna if you happen to read this, then I have no idea what's up okay? Haha

And P.S. I think I've finally cracked. I'm laughing after writing this. ^-^

Comments are welcomed~♥
Tags: !fanfiction, character: kibum, group: super junior
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