sbluesnow (sbluesnow) wrote in sblue_snow,

[FIC] Death of Me

Title: Death of me
Author: sbluesnow
Group(s): Super Junior
Main: Series Archive | One-Shots Archive
Pairing(s): Hankyung x Siwon
Chapter(s): One-Shot
Summary: They were together because they had a reason to be. Now that, that reason is gone, will they try even though it hurts to stay?
Dedicated to: ai_sumairu because you wanted ShiHan and here's ShiHan. Not happy ShiHan but eh.


Hankyung walks into the living room and stood in front of his lover who was sitting on the couch and watching some Chinese TVB series.

"You're the death of me." He blurted out randomly.

"What makes you say that?" Siwon asked, eyes not looking away from the TV screen. Pak Kieu has just woken up from his coma and Yuk Bo is trying to get him to talk to her but he's just looking at her blankly.

"Because everything you do is killing me!"

"In a good way or bad?"

"I want to break up."

Siwon raises his eyebrows and eyes widen double in size.

"Why?" The show had cut to commercial and Siwon was now looking at Hankyung. He didn't get why his lover was suddenly like this.

"Because I can't stand this anymore."

"What do you mean by 'this'? Do you mean us?"

"No, not us. I mean you. I can't stand you anymore Siwon!"

"Why? What's the real reason you want to break up?"

"There isn't one."

"Then we're not breaking up." Siwon said firmly.

"You just don't get it. This isn't about you. It's not a decision for you to make. I have no reason to be with you anymore. And because there's no reason for me to be with you, we shouldn't be together."

"So you had a reason to be with me before but not now? What changed?"

"Love? Happiness? Freedom? Respect?"

"What? Are you saying that I've drove you to hate me?"

"I don't hate you Siwon. I just don't love you anymore."
Hankyung said it like he was nothing. He said it with no emotion.
"Did you ever love me?"

Hankyung looked Siwon right in the eye.

"I might have."

"You might have?"

"I don't remember anymore." Hankyung said with a shrug.

Siwon couldn't believe it. The man he loves is breaking up with him. The man he loves doesn't love him. The man he loves might have not ever loved him.

Siwon's heart stopped in his mind. Its beat was so slow and weak. His mind went blank. His heart wasn't beating for Hankyung anymore. Not the way it used to.

He didn't register the fact that there were men coming in and out of their apartment. He didn't realize that they were moving box after box, suitcase after suitcase out the door. It last for a good 10 minutes before the door closed with a soft click.

At some point during those 10 minutes, Hankyung had placed his keys on the coffee table in front of Siwon. He may or may not have said something to Siwon. If Hankyung did, he didn't hear it.
Siwon ignored the keys and went back to watching his drama. Eyes focusing on the screen, body relaxed and comfortable in the couch like nothing had happen. Like the past 15 minutes didn't happen at all. Like the past year hadn't happen and that the pain wasn't real.


A/N: Sorry Faye. You wanted Chinaman to be happy because of Siwon but that didn't happen obviously. Why? No idea.

Comments are welcomed~♥
Tags: !fanfiction, group: super junior, pairing: hankyung x siwon
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