sbluesnow (sbluesnow) wrote in sblue_snow,

[FIC] I Still believe

Title: I still believe
Author: sbluesnow
Pairing(s): Kibum x Changmin, Kyuhyun x Kibum
Chapter(s): One-Shot
Summary: Regardless of what's evident and obvious, it's not wrong to believe even when death is near. With one's last breath, to continue to believe instead of admitting the truth is the denial of love.
Warning: Character death


"I'll be here waiting for you."

That's what you said yesterday. That you'd be here, today, in this spot waiting for me but I don't see you. I don't see anyone. I've waited all day, from morning till night, waiting for you. I haven't left my spot in case you did come.

"Changmin, where are you?"

It's cold. The wind is picking up. I should have worn extra layers. I should go home and come back later. It's already past midnight. I should but I can't. My legs are hurting from sitting in the same position on the freezing bench for so long.

Kyuhyun had said not to trust you. He said that I'd only get my heart broken. I had laughed at him saying that wouldn't happen. Right now, I think it is happening but it doesn't feel like it. My heart has gone numb from the cold. I don't feel it anymore. It might be a bad sign but I don't really care anymore.

I still believe that you'll come. I still believe that you'll keep your promise and show up. I still believe in you and whatever 'us' is.

In your eyes, we are friends? I want us to be more. There's always a ‘but’ isn't there? I want to laugh at my own stupidity but laughing right now would hurt. My throat feels clogged up. Just breathing is painful. It feels like with each breath I take, my lungs are being crushed.

Shim Changmin, what have you done to me? Will this be the only way for you to notice me? When you see my name across some page in the newspaper about a young male dead in the park?

I don't know what to think anymore. Maybe I should just go into the light. Or dark since I can't keep my eyes open anymore.

You knew didn't you? You knew my feelings for you. Or at least how I change when I'm around you yet you show nothing of it. I guess we aren't meant to be.

But I still believe.

I still believe that you'll come. Maybe when I wake up, you'll be here.


A/N: Yeah, I'm doing it again. T-T Sorry Bummie, but it's happening again. I killed you. *pouts* Changmin you bastard! Letting him wait all day, hungry and cold and dying!

Comments are welcomed~♥
Tags: !fanfiction, group: dbsk, group: super junior, pairing: kibum x changmin, pairing: kibum x kyuhyun
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