Warning: Mention of death and slight theme violence
Summary: Every fairy tale has a princess and her prince. At one point or another, a kiss is shared. Reality is a different story. Different characters, different loves, different hearts makes for a different happily ever after. If there is one, that is.
A/N: Started this a while back but never got around to finishing it until now.
The beach, the water, the waves are beautiful. They have the power to lock onto someone's soul and connect with them. The waves could be bashing and coming in. The waves could be swishing to the side gently and calmly sitting there enjoying the cool breeze.
Its times like this that it makes a person want to forget everything and just go in the water. It doesn't matter what that person does. They can swim, they can sit or they can stand. So someone does. He walks confidently into the water. He doesn't care about his pants getting wet or that the water was a bit too cold. He knows what he's doing. He's not suicidal or trying to get attention. He just wants to be in the water and enjoy it.
It's 6:17 AM right now. It's still dark out. The sun isn't rising yet. The wind is colder and harsher at this hour but the person doesn't care. He continues to stand in the water with the waves crashing against his legs and stomach. His back is facing the beach. His front is facing the open waters. His mind isn't thinking much now. He's focusing on the water and letting everything drown out.
"I knew you'd be here."
The person in the water turned his head around. He stared at the person talking to him. It's too dark to make out the other's face but he knows who it is just by the voice.
"What are you doing here Changmin?"
"Looking out for you obviously."
He shook his head and turned back to the water. It doesn't matter if he can't see the waves, hearing it was enough to satisfy him.
"When are you going to come back?"
"Back to where?"
"Don't play stupid with me. Back to our apartment. Back to being roommates. I don't understand why you would stay in a hotel when you have a home."
"I want my freedom that's all."
"Freedom doesn't including pushing your friends away."
"Oh, so it's just me that you're pushing away then is it?"
He didn't say anything.
"Answer me Kibum! Why the hell are you pushing me away when I haven't done anything to you dammit?!" Changmin yelled, his voice louder than the waves. The beach was empty this early in the morning, allowing his voice to echo and carry out into the water.
"You're trying too hard Changmin. It's awkward between us now. Why can't you go back to being the old you?"
"I'm only trying so hard because you keep pushing me out of your life!"
"Why are you so adamant in staying in my life? You'll end up leaving just like the others anyways."
Changmin was getting angrier by the second with the words coming out of Kibum's pretty little mouth. He took large strides towards Kibum and spun him around, hands grabbing his shoulders.
"I'm not like them. This Kibum, isn't enough to push me away. It doesn't matter to me. You do."
"Why?" Was all Kibum could say and ask.
"I don't know why. It's not like I love you, at least I don't think so but I do care about you Kibum. I care about you, a lot. I can't stand seeing you push me away when I've done nothing wrong. Me trying to hold onto our friendship is not wrong. I'm stronger than this Kibum. You going through the accident and having your life dramatically changed isn't enough to push me away. I can help you conquer this. We can do it together." Changmin's eyes were shining after his mini speech. He doesn't know what came over him for him to say all that but he meant every word. He was looking into Kibum's blank lifeless eyes, waiting for a response to his heart felt but not mushy words.
It was only one word that made Changmin's anger flare.
"Why the hell not?" Changmin shouted, shaking Kibum by the shoulders like he was a rag doll.
"I don't want to." Kibum said simply, voice avoid of emotions and face expressionless.
Something inside of Changmin just snapped. Here he was trying to salvage their relationship while Kibum didn't give a crap. Pulling away from Kibum, Changmin raised his hand and slapped Kibum so hard that he fell backwards and landed in the water. Changmin stood shaking with guilt once he realized what he had just done. He'd just slap Kibum so hard that he fell into the water. Jolting out of shock, Changmin bent down and held onto Kibum's arm, trying to pull him up. He never expected the strong punch to his cheek.
Falling onto his back, Changmin was dazed and in pain from the powerful punch. He almost missed seeing Kibum getting up and walking away from him. Almost. He lunged at Kibum, making them both fall into the water. Kibum struggled in his hold, determined to get away from him and he wouldn't have any of that. They wrestled, rolling back and forth in the water, bodies both soaking wet and panting for breath. Using strength that he had no idea he had left, Changmin pinned Kibum down.
The waves represented their emotions. Fury, impatient and stubbornness. The waves kept coming in, drenching them both with the cold morning water. They weren't lying in on the sand anymore. They were in the shallow ends of the water; bodies (well Kibum) emerged in the water.
"Why do you keep pushing me away?!" Changmin asked, tired of this game and tired of fighting. He's not a fan of violence. Especially not fighting with his best friend.
Kibum hissed, trying to pull his wrists free from Changmin's tight hold. Changmin was on top of him, legs on either side of him, pinning him down. He hates this. He hates when others try to control him and force him to give into them. He'll only fight back twice as hard when pushed into a corner. Feeling a tiny bit guilty for what he's about to do, Kibum tugged his hands one last time before kneeing Changmin in the groin.
It had to worked to say the least. Changmin groaned in pain, doubling over, hands going to his crotch. Kibum used this chance to push Changmin off but it didn't work. Changmin was determined to hold onto him, once again tackling him into the water. Only this time, they rolled further away from shore, right into deep open water.
Changmin gasped for air when he swam to the surface, ignoring or trying his hardest to ignore the pain. He looked around for a sign that Kibum had surfaced or swam back to shore. He didn't see him even after shouting his name and looking around him for a minute. Realization kicking in, Changmin dunked back under water looking for his best friend. He didn't have to look very far because Kibum was a few metres away from him, trying to set his foot free from the seaweed holding him down.
Knowing he had to save his best friend, Changmin swam over and ripped the seaweed off, tugging a much-in-need-of-air Kibum up to the surface and carrying him back to shore. Changmin was ready to perform CPR when Kibum not so gently shoved him away, gasping for breath and shivering from the cold morning sea breeze. Changmin fell back but got back up again. He sat up and pulled Kibum into his arms, hugging him tight and not willing to let him go.
"Don't you ever do that to me! You can't risk your life like that." Changmin growled, squeezing Kibum even tighter in his arms. He's gone so far and been through so much that he's not going to let Kibum do something stupid like this. Death is not an option. Kibum can run all he wants, he can run to the end to the end of the Earth and Changmin will gladly run after him. With Death, there isn't a chance and there has to be one.
"Let me go." Kibum whispered, his voice sounding so different than his own. Like a lost child who has given up all hope and love.
"No. I'm not letting go. Not anymore."
He will gladly run after Kibum but he's tired of them fighting. His tone was soft and low. He didn't have the energy to lecture or yell at Kibum anymore. Right now, all he wants to do is hold Kibum in his arms and watch the sunrise together. Who cares if what they see are different things, it doesn't. Nothing really matters as long as they can be side by side. Always.
"Fine but you're carrying me back. I'm too tired to walk."
"That's okay. Just sleep if you're tired. I can watch the sunrise for the both of us."
Kibum scoffed but said nothing. He leaned against Changmin but made no move to hug him back. His hands rested in his lap and not entwined with Changmin's. He's stop running but that doesn't mean he's letting Changmin in. If Changmin wants to be part of his life, he's on his own. He has to make the trek up the driveway by himself without Kibum's help. Even though a tiny part of him wants to let Changmin in, to believe Changmin's words and to hold onto Changmin, the fear and the knowledge of history repeating itself one too many times holds him back. Changmin has successfully broken down the gates to his little secluded and private world. Now he just has to get passed the barriers stopping him from entering the mansion and finding the one room that holds him inside.
Until then, he's not going to do anything more than now. He's not going to accept Changmin. He's not going to stop trying to push Changmin away. He's not going to do anything but wait.
Its ironic how one nickname can be so true and close to reality. Like Snow White, he's waiting to be freed by his Prince. That doesn't make him a princess, though if Changmin were to say he is one, he'd gladly kick Changmin in the groin again. And if Changmin does something stupid like try to kiss him when he's asleep to supposedly wake him up from the so called spell, he will not, he repeats, will not hesitate to kick him out of their apartment and destroy all his porn.
No one makes Kim Kibum a girl.